I don't have much time but wanted to make one last post before the beginning of 2011. For me, 2010 has been a year of many ups and downs. It was a year of some of my best moments, and some of my worst. I remained stuck in a situation that wasn't working anymore, for too long. I let my demons get the best of me, again. I lacked discretion and made mistakes. I fell down. Hard. And I got back up. I kept myself too guarded, and I let people in that I'd shut out. I told too little and too much.

I learned a lot. I learned that I'm tougher than I thought I was. I learned that sometimes we make things out to be more complicated or more difficult than it will be. I learned that there's not always someone to blame, and even if there is, it does no good. I learned that good byes can be messy, that you can never control someone else's actions or make someone see things from your point of view. Sometimes you have to make your own closure. Sometimes new beginnings seem natural. Sometimes you start something for one reason and continue for another. Sometimes you surprise yourself. I did.

Somewhere in the last roller coaster of a year, I realized, for the first time ever, I will be okay. I've fought some demons in my life that might indicate otherwise, and I realized, on one of the worst nights of my life, I will be ok because I'll never completely lose my self-respect or my will to fight. Though it ended well, I don't want to relive a year that eventful any time soon.

SO here's to new beginnings, and an optimistic view on life. Here's to learning the hard way, because that's the only way I'll ever learn. Here's to accepting the things you can't change about yourself, and realizing that someone else will accept them too, one day. Here's to a less melodramatic year.

And a life worth living.